| I was raised in a faith based religion and spent the | | | | and began to trust the message did I finally |
| first 15 years of my life searching for a spiritual | | | | experience a surprising openness of spirit that filled |
| experience within that paradigm. Throughout I was | | | | not only my heart but my entire being. |
| taught that such an experience could only come | | | | I began to feel lighter, more buoyant, great inner |
| after my supposed death at which time I would | | | | peace, a deep feeling of love for my self and |
| meet my creator. | | | | everything around me, a sense of inner confidence |
| In addition my inability to access any kind of spiritual | | | | and self esteem, deep feelings of joy and |
| connection while alive was explained to me to be the | | | | contentment, a wonderful sense of expansiveness, |
| result of my inability to have faith in the proclaimed | | | | and a deep feeling of connectedness to my body |
| God and hence there was something wrong with me. | | | | and my environment. |
| This initially filled me with deep remorse as well as a | | | | At last I had arrived home, to the experience of my |
| sense of inadequacy and unworthiness. | | | | Divine Self! |
| Needless to say this only undermined my self | | | | I then reflected on what I had originally been taught |
| esteem, my peace of mind and any faith I may have | | | | and wondered why it was that religions were |
| had. | | | | essentially depriving human beings of such awareness. |
| As time went by I began to accept that this state | | | | I occurred to me that by doing so an institutional |
| of affairs was not to my liking. For many who are | | | | religion could then usurp this divinity from its followers |
| taught to fear God I think you can appreciate that | | | | and thereby control them enmass. |
| such an internal shift required a measure of courage. | | | | If you look around you I think you will see how |
| Rather than give up on my search for a Divine | | | | clearly this is happening. If you look at how religion is |
| spiritual experience however I gave up instead on the | | | | used to literally make individuals "kill in the name of |
| tenets of the religious beliefs I was taught. | | | | God" you will recognize, I hope, the sadness that |
| I continued my search, not so much for a religion, | | | | your heart feels about this. |
| rather for the experience itself. Here is what I found. | | | | What is this sadness telling you? |
| As I progressed through my life as a psychiatrist and | | | | Well if you reflect on as I did you will most certainly |
| a therapist I realized that not only was there a Divine | | | | recognize that something is terribly wrong with this |
| experience to be had while alive but also that it was | | | | picture. |
| right within me. Indeed it "was" me! | | | | I ask you, if you wish, to simply recognize and |
| All of this time I had been led astray by religious | | | | acknowledge those feelings deep inside your heart |
| dogma promulgating "lies" about how we as human | | | | and then notice how you feel. |
| beings are fallible, inadequate, beings. All of this time I | | | | Now you may feel like a veil has been removed from |
| had tried to buy into such falseness. | | | | your consciousness and you can "see" more clearly |
| It was only my breaking heart that helped me to | | | | what is happening on this planet i.e. how individuals |
| "feel" the falseness of all of it. My heart felt heavy | | | | are selling out their own divinity in the name of |
| with sadness. I realized that this sadness was a | | | | religion. |
| message for me stating that something was terribly | | | | Is this what you want? If not and you wish to |
| wrong. | | | | reconnect and re-experience your Divine Self then |
| Only when I managed to acknowledge the sadness | | | | kindly visit the web link below. |